Only 3 or 4 more days or so until I feel completey better and after that it will be all mental is keeping myself away. I'm going to go to a meeting a day while I'm detoxing.

Not gonna lie though I feel like straight up ass. Wish me luck.

good, now stick with it and keep it up.
when you're done, lemme frag you in TFC.

Jesus, good luck man. I see people detoxing off all sorts of shit all the time. Dope is pretty bad, but, you can't die from it like booze. We don't usually send guys coming off dope to the hospital like most booze detoxes usually go. The hardest part will be keeping away from everyone and anyone you use to be around who sold it/uses it. My advice, get a new life and a new circle of friends so you never come in contact with it, ever. Again, good luck man! Stay strong...

Bout time that you tackled this, sir. Good luck.

Just give it all to me.

dope? I SUCKED DICK FOR COKE.

When this is all over, let's smoke a victory blunt.

boo this man!

you should go on that intervention show so you can make a couple bucks in the process

lol

Wait, we talking dope, or DOPE?

DOPE DOPE

Heroin dope

Dopity mcdopy dope

like this?

wut?

Oh, ok. That sucks. Yeah, you probably don't wanna do anymore of that. THERE, YOU'RE CURED!

lol thanks steve. yea i was clean for 2 years up until a couple months ago when i relapsed. i'd write my whole drug abuse/recovery story for you to read but you probably don't want to read that wall of text.

just create a blog.

"reimroc: the struggles and hopes of an avid PC gamer"

in all seriousness, good luck

thanks aril. i'll repost my story for all of you to read and hopefully learn from if you have an addictive personality and are thinking about experimenting with cocaine or opiates. really its for all of you to know where i'm coming from.

And here we go.....

Around the age of 16 I started experimenting with Oxycontin, Percocets, Vicodin and the like. The first time I blew an oxy it was the greatest thing I ever felt in my entire life. Better than sex, better than love, better than the meaning and logic of emotion itself. Before I knew it I had a habit taking about 2 80 OCs a day and that grew to 4 a day. Finally taking those things got way to expensive(this was around 03 when the government starting cracking down and prices went from 30-50 an OC80 to 70-100 for an OC80) so I asked around and got my first bag of dope(dope being heroin so if you see me write that thats what I mean, not weed or anything else). Being that heroin got me that same great opiate high at a low price I was in love. I couldn't get anough of it. But before I knew it snorting the stuff wasn't getting the job done anymore, wasn't getting me high like it used to. So one day after consulting a couple people I knew who had booted(shot, injected) heroin before I tried it. Needless to say it was the greatest thing I ever felt since the first time I blew an oxy. Before I knew it I had a 2 gram a day habit and I was burning every bridge I had. This way by my 18th birthday. Shortly after I got arrested and put on probation for breaking into my neighbors house. This led me to drug court, a halfway house and the means of recovery that got me clean and sober for 2 years. It was a happy, amazing 2 years ad I gained the trust back of my family and friends. I got my degree and certifications for database administration. I was on the right track. This leads us to a couple months ago when I broke down after being stressed and NOT using the tools I had to keep me from using, I used. Since then, a couple months ago, I've had an off and on habit and basically being a "functioning addict". I didn't burn any bridges, I didn't lose my job and I pretty much kept my using again a secret from everyone until a month later my mother found my stash of used needles in my room. Needless to say they were dissapointed. I was dissapointed in myself as well. Since then I continued being off and on again. Using a couple days here a couple days there. The past couple of weeks I decided to start using everyday and now I'm paying for it with some shitty withdrawls but I need to stop before I get back to the way I was before I got clean and sober a couple years ago.

fix'd

oh man

I used to be reimroc

It's great that you're doing this. I wish you all the best, and hope that you get to the place you want to be.

I think that one posters advice to make new friends and sever old relationships with those around you who enable you to use, is very good advice. A close friend of mine, twice went to rehab for cocaine addiction, and upon leaving, he would continue to hang with the same people, and ALWAYS ended up relapsing. Now his life is utter shit.

Nothing good can come of using that shit. Nothing.

thanks for your support guise

You probably need to find religion. May I suggest:

Good luck sir! I have not had the pains of addiction (the comedown from one night of MDMA was enough to scare me away from harder drugs) weed ftw for me!

I joke (and will continue too), but good for you dude. Speaking of, when's josh martin going to come in here and call you a pussy?

i hear you, coming down from LSD was enough for me to never want anything harder...and that wasn't even bad, more like "this is lasting too damn long, i just want to be connected to my brain again"

you can do it reim, you're almost there, mind over matter as always.

thanks broski. i'm trying to keep myself busy(still being at work helps) but i really can't when i feel like i have the flu. all i want to do is lay down and not move.

good luck, dude. get back to where you were for two years. that's where you need to be.

coming down off LSD? that's the weirdest thing I've ever read. I may or may not have taken plenty of acid and if I did, I wouldn't be able to think of a single time that I would have said "Why won't this end". If I had ever done it a bunch, I would have probably thought "awe... why was that so short? I need to run outside more"

well the one time I took it, even jimBoar said it was a very strong dose. it lasted around 20 hours and i took a TRIP...but after about 12 hours i was done with the feeling. i get sick of being stoned too, so there ya go.

"I may or may not have taken plenty of acid and if I did.." haha

Keep it up bro! I've seen way to many people loose everything due to this shit.

Good luck, man. Be strong and be well.

Rev, you're a dirty hippie who may or may not listen to too much Jethro Airplane.

Day three. Still feel assy but its better than day one and two.

I can understand the lsd lasting too long, but there wasn't much of a comedown for me from it, which is awesome.

Mushrooms on the other hand...terrible come down! haha LSDFTW

good luck

If I had ever taken mushrooms, I probably would have found that they weren't strong enough, lasted too short, and made me feel like I had to poop constantly.

do you take seboxon? spelling?

to op ^

my friend is at about the same stage as u thats why im askin

Ugh, this breaks my heart. This is pretty much exactly my little brother's story, except he's relapsed 3x and went to jail for theft (to support the habit of course).

Keep at it. And stay the fuck away from anyone who deals or uses. Don't rely on good luck.

I wish I could find the thread where I posted about the time I did shrooms. After that experience, I vowed to stick to the staples.

you get your drugs at staples?

that was walmart

I snort cock and smoke crack. I used to do heroin but that got boring and pee pee and tee hee. Now I sort glass and I ve learned the job by heart. Pills are nice too.

How are you sleeping? Night 3 -4 were always real hard on me.

I've been sleeping fine. I know some people do get insomnia but when I feel like I have the flu all I want to do is sleep.

We've talked man, good luck. You know where I stand with this.

Gross, i hate the "flu" feeling. The constant yawns, the watering eyes, the runny nose, it SUCKS!

Yea I'm pretty much over that hump. Now it seems its mostly me shitting myself silly.

glad to hear you're still keeping at it.

Would see this band.

Welcome to day 4. Good job!

There is no remedy for this. It doesn't matter how many Imodium pills you take, it just wont stop. I'd invest in some prep-H wipes now.

This isn't the first time I've went through withdrawls. I'm prepared with my laptop to be able to browse the interwebs while i sit on the toilet.

It's different for everyone, and obviously you know what you're in for, but the only thing that really helped me kick the shit was that everytime i relapsed, i immediately started quitting again. If you continue doing that, and don't give in to the whole "I feel so bad about relapsing that i'm gonna go on a two week bender" thing, eventually you'll just get so sick of doing the terrible first 3 days over, and over, and over, that you'll be more driven to stay off. Like i said, i know you know what you're in for, and how you should treat it, but any positive reinforcement is always good.


As a side note, for any of you reading this that haven't dealt with serious addiction, the fact that Garrett is posting this is a big step in the right direction, and shows that he wants to be clean. Otherwise he would have continued hiding the addiction to the best of his abilities. I applaud you Garrett, and I really do sympathize. Just keep with it, and keep reminding yourself about how happy you were during the two years that you stayed clean.

thanks jim. i do appreciate everyones support including yours because i know you have dealt with this same shit before and are no stranger to recovery.

Yup. I still tell everyone that i'm an addict. Clean, but still fighting every second of every day.

who's this garrett guy? i thought his name was reimroc.

Thats the way it is. No one is ever "cured".

Garret is my name. First name to be exact. reimroc is just my online forum alias.

Pretty sure that was a joke Garret.

probably was but just in case....

it was a joke, but it's nice to meet you garrett. is your last name reimroc?

yes and no.

i keep thinking this a thread about that band Today is the Day

cormier

I don't know you and vice versa...but I just wanted to say that a complete stranger admires your bravery and I wish you the best. I've seen some close friends of mine deal with this shit and it ain't pretty. You don't need luck man, you've clearly got a brain and some heart so just use those and you'll be good to go.

that's what i thought

Day 5:

Feeling a lot better. Still kind of have an "off" feeling but better overall than any of the other days. Still shitting myself silly because I hadn't taken a dump for two weeks.

Again, thank you guys for all of your support. It really did and still does mean a lot to me and definitely helped me stay motivated to get through this to get clean again.

Time for the apomorphine cure. Good luck!

wut?

reim, have you ever read up on Ibogaine? It interrupts heroine addiction, and will completely stop withdrawals, and make the mental addiction MUCH easier. Not to mention the fact that you trip your frieking balls off from it. There are clinics that administer it in Canada, if you can't get up there though i could show you how to procure some.

It better not be some ridiculous quest to procure it jimbo. I really don't feel like jumping through hoops lol

(Altogether, now...) "HI, GARRET!"

Hey, if you feel like dealing with dope withdrawals instead of ordering something that would interrupt them (jumping through hoops) then by all means.

I read up on this a bit, I guess it can make you trip a little bit eh?

a little bit? No, lots and lots.

Oh okay, well thats better then!

Jeeez no need for the attitude. I just don't like jumping through hoops for stuff. If it really is as simple as going to a website and ordering something then explain it to me. PM me or send me an email if you remember the address. Or you can call my cell if you remember that too.

good luck

You got this man. Keep up the work!